possible

It's still possible that we will make our 85% goal by October 26. I still have great hope and God has done it for us like that before. I'm sorry I'm not writing every day. This is the busiest season I've ever had.

In the midst of the busyness, I got really stressed out and it started to show itself in my health, which I had been caring for quite well. I did a Whole 30, I've been a teeeeeensy bit more active, and I am seeing a holistic chiropractor for ear/jaw/neck pain I've experienced since early this year. But I was so mad at God that it seems impossible we will reach our goal, so anxious about the deadline, the tasks, and what it looks like to other people that we appear to be failing our mission {hello honesty}.

God is so faithful, though. I didn't want to, but I had to spend time in the word and in prayer because of my BSF responsibilities. In the middle of that, God answered prayers for spiritual maturity that I've prayed for many years. You know, the ongoing kind where I ask God to grow my faithfulness to him and help me to seek him even when I don't want to. So even though I would have liked to just hang up the phone, I prayed that God would speak to me through my study of Revelation. I didn't really want him to, but I asked him to, knowing that he could.

And maybe even that he would.

He did. He sustained me. He drew me close and He is so good. So many blessings. My feelings about the circumstances are mostly the same, but my feelings toward my good Heavenly Father are different.

And then He gave us a tangible reminder of His control and His good plan.

There was a time, years ago, that we presented our ministry to a church we imagined was a shoe-in. It wasn't, and we didn't understand why. We thought a relationship with this church would be so valuable, reliable, and mutually beneficial. They went a different direction and that was that and we were very disappointed.

Recently the church went through some hard things and it looks very different now. We realized that we probably would not have made the cut in a variety of changes they'll undergo over the next few months. It was neat to remember that God knew about these forthcoming hard circumstances even when we were meeting with the church. He knows why we didn't make the 12 to 18 month time frame missionaries aim for these days. He knows, and He controls.

For now, we will continue to raise ebenezers when we see how God uses our time on prefield to equip us for foreign missions, prepare us for ministry in Spain, make us more like Jesus.

Will you join us in prayer (or in person!) on Saturday evening? We are hosting a Night in Spain (Facebook invite) - Spanish appetizers, our new video, a time of sharing and an invitation to participate in what God is doing in Spain.